ADHD and our natural approach plan for our son

Today our son had a child wellness check up with updated vaccines so we could get him geared up for starting preschool.

It's always been discussed at his doctor appointments is his possibility of having ADHD. At his doctor's appointments I made it clear about EVERYTHING that I was experiencing with him that made me feel uneasy. I did make sure to write behaviors and reactions as I experienced them with Kayden since his 2nd birthday (he is now almost 3 come January)

They included:

• 2 hour tantrums.
• Tantrums that involved violence of either himself, objects around him, or others. This involved banging his head on the floor and walls, throwing himself on the floor so hard he would bruise himself up, slapping himself, slapping others, kicking others and other objects, throwing large heavy items, locking up of his body and limbs, and biting. 
• He could not and would not look anyone in the eyes.
• He had what we liked to call his "anchor" item. Normally it was a screwdriver, ball, or blanket that he constantly would hold on to. If anyone was to take or touch it he would throw a tantrum. 
• He doesn't like to be touched very much or held, and cannot sit longer then 10-15 minutes at a time.
• He has extreme OCD with things more so size or items. What ever it is he has to line them up from small to larger and group them according to colors. 
• His vocabulary was sounds instead of words.
• He is so quick and easy to be distracted and runs in 100 different ways.
• Has to touch and climb on everything he comes in contact with even if it's a window or someone else's car.
• Screaming, squealing, and making noises uncontrollably.

I think the best thing about him and his tantrums is he does take in account when his baby sister is around and if he comes anywhere near her while he is throwing a tantrum he will get up and go to the opposite side from where she is at. Like I said he is a sweet boy, his older sister though is a different story. Mostly we have to move her to a separate room to avoid her getting caught up in his tantrums.

Here recently from the notes I took on him since his last visit (maybe around 6 or more months ago) the only thing that has changed is he will look you in the eyes pretty well and his vocabulary went from sounds to maybe 25 words at the most but the doctor saw more of him mimicking words then actually putting words together and talking to you. 

His doctor told us that now was the time to get him into see a child behavioral specialist to start being evaluated to get down to figuring out what needs to be done and course our plan of action to begin to better teach him on his level. 

His doctor told us he shows sure signs of ADHD but of course he can't be diagnoses without proper testing. 

We were told so far that he may have to be put on medication which in my perspective I am not ok with at such a young age, so our alternatives will fully be discussed at his evaluations, which I will be doing a post on to help those be more prepared about what the the testing includes exactly. For now and for a while we are going the more natural route to dealing with this, if he has it.  

So far it's cutting out as much sugars as we possible can, putting him on a strict diet, he will be having a doctor appointment every 4-6 months, and start seeing a child behavioral specialist frequently. 

Hearing about how food can actually affect behavior was mind blowing. I went on Pinterest and found these awesome sites to help guide me through.

• ADDitude Mag
• Asparrowsworth
• Active Beat

Wish us luck, send good vibes. He starts preschool on the 26th and this will help him further. 

Fun Family Costume Ideas!

Hey loves,

With Halloween coming up, I know I am a huge procrastinator when it comes to getting costumes especially because we never really know what we are going as. My 5yo changes her mind on an hourly basis, and with our younger 2 they arn't old enough to really tell us.

This year we wanted to do a whole family theme. Since we are very much into DC Comics, especially with Gotham the TV Show which is my husbands absolutely #1 favorite TV Show, we are going with that theme.

For our kids Sophia is going to be Bat Girl, Kayden is going to be Batman, and Lyrix is going to be Wonder Woman.

Me and my husband are obsessed with The Joker and Harley Quinn. SOOO.... can you have any question as to what we are being for Halloween.? :D

For the mommies that are like me and have been so hectic and have yet to figure out Halloween costumes here are some great ideas and maybe even future Halloween costumes.

(From the Huffington Post)

Fred, Velma, and Pebbles

 Root Beer Float (which is adorable)

 Pirates and a Parrot 

 Snoopy and Charlie Brown

 How To Train Your Dragon

 The Incredible's 

(From Pinterest)

 Rapunzel, Flynn Rider, and Pascal

 Peter Pan Family 

 The Adams Family 

 The Wizard of Oz

 Exploring Adventurers 

Other Fantastic sites for Costumes

Popsugar

The Dating Divas

Costume Works

Don't forget to tag me in your pictures on Instagram @mrslildirty25 or tweet it to me @KieraGestl. I would love to see your creative ideas :D 

To the man who's mad at the world...

Dear Man who is mad at the world,


           It's ok to have a bad day. It's ok to get mad. It's ok to blow off some steam. It, however, is not ok to come home from your bad day, in a bad mood, mad and take it out on your home and the people in it.

Anger is such a wasteful feeling. It tends to have you lash out at those who least deserve it. Your wife who is trying so hard to make you feel better, do what she can through your glares and your radiating hostile energy. Though you love her and would do anything for her, you have little to no control over where your anger tends to lash out. When your upset remember your wife is upset with you. When your stressed, that stressful energy not only pools out to her but the children as well.

My dear Sir, you are not the only one who has bad days, feels hurt, or gets angry. Being angry does not mean that you are pardoned from any hurtful words that seem to spill from your lips. Your wife doesn't deserve the disrespect, your children doesn't deserve to see your hostile lashes reach your ever trying wife's path.

There are so many ways to control that anger. Maybe stay out a little while longer to release the stress, go for a run, hit the gym, maybe even write it down in a hateful letter and burn it to burn all the hate you released and well, burn the evidence. You do not want that getting into the wrong hands!

Remember, Mr. Grumpy Pants... the next time your angry, before you come in contact with anyone, release the anger. Even if you don't realize it your anger can cut her with the harshest words that you yourself would have never imagined to say to her. It will push her closer to the door, closer to a life on her own. She loves you and when the world seems to be against you, she is one who will always be in your corner.

It's you and her against the world, not Her and you against each other.  Love her unconditionally when your angry, tell her your problems instead of making her feel like she is the problem, hug her even though you don't want to be touched, kiss her to keep you from saying harsh words. It will make a difference and turn your day if not life around, I assure you. Give your children the example of what a Great Man is. <3

Sincerely,

Woman on the outside looking in.

Jewelry In Candles review

Hey loves,

I previously have bought some candles from a good friend of mine and my husband. I bought 2 candles a couple months ago and recently received some tarts so I could do this review from the awesome Jennifer Damron. Tarts are the wick-less candle squares. I have always wanted to get some and since I love Jewelry In Candles, I couldn't wait to receive these.

A little about Jewelry In Candles
Their mission is to make candles that are alternatives to Paraffin Wax candles. Candles that last longer with a great smell and eco-friendly. The candles are made with 100% soy wax that have premium fragrances that create and amazing sensational safe haven in your home.

Each candle or tart has a piece of jewelry which you get to choose from. It is safely wrapped and protected in a tiny plastic baggy which is then covered by pink tin foil. This keeps your jewelry safe and clean, ready to wear as soon as you want.

Soy vs. Paraffin 

SOY:

1. Biodegradable, non-toxic, and harmless to environment. Perfect for everyone, especially those with Children and Pets who have more worry with health concerns due to them. 
2.  Less likely to give an allergic reaction. 
3. Wax is safe to have contact with skin 
4. Wax is safe to be touched while burning 
5. Easy to clean if an accident was to occur and make a mess, it can be cleaned up with soap and water.
6. You'll save money. Soy bean wax burns 50% longer due to burning at a lower temperature.
7. Made from soy beans and vegetables. 
8. Burns cleaner and purer
9. Biodegradable which leads to reduced landfills 

PARAFFIN: 

1. Contain petroleum by product, have shown to be toxic and carcinogenic. 
2. Proven to be as dangerous when burned, as second hand tobacco smoke
3. May lead to increased risk of cancer, neurological and behavioral deficits, and acute aggravation of existing respiratory diseases. 
4. Emissions in the home are estimated to stick around for up to 10 hours.
5. Some may even still use lead wicks 
6. Non-renewable resource 
7. Burns quickly and hotter which can easily be a fire hazard
8. Oil based meaning once there is a spill or mess it can easily be made worse with clean up. 
9. Derived from petroleum which is a limited resource 
10. Soot deposits carcinogenic particle matter  
11. Not biodegradable 

As you can see there are many health and environmental issues that come from paraffin wax candles. These are not saying that paraffin wax absolutely without a doubt leads to the horrible things, but it does increase risks of issues such as these. 

The Jewelry inside the candles

The jewelry in the candles is what makes the candles and tarts so special, of course other than the safer eco-friendly ingredients it is made from. There are even men rings in some scents. Some candles and tarts are scented to be pleasing and appealing to both men and women. 

The jewelry ranges in value from $10-$1000 or more.

Like I told you guys I have had the candles already and this was my first time with the tarts. I love them all! Especially the scents. These candles really live up to what they say they do and that is one of the best qualities I look for when it comes to buying anything! Does this product really do what it says.? YES without a doubt!

 this is the best pic I have of the necklace I received from the Clean Cotton candle which I wore all the time until I had a 5yo jewelry bandit raid my Jewelry box (taken a couple months ago)

 this was from the Caribbean Teakwood

At least try it once because once is all it takes to fall in love with these candles and tarts. No you don't have to give up on your Yankee Candles or Air Wick candles but I promise these will be just as good if not better.

The scents are enchanting, so far I have had Love Potion, Clean Cotton, and now we have had the Caribbean Teakwood. My favorite so far has been the Caribbean Teakwood. My husband and oldest child are obsessed with the Love Potion, my husband will burn both at the same time and the best thing is the scents mix beautifully! I am obsessed with these candles and tarts. I love them. I keep hinting to my hubby we need more of course we can never decide on a scent but the goal is to definitely try them all and stock up on our favorites. We were buying 2 a month until the hubby slacked on it lol he tends to forget sometimes but that is why I am here right.?

 I received a gorgeous pair of heart dangle earrings from the Love Potion candle. This is my hubby and 5yo's favorite so far.

Don't forget to check them out Jewelry In Candles sold by the amazing Jennifer Damron. Don't forget to go and like her JIC Facebook Page to get all the updates on seasonal scents and stay connected. She is such an amazing person and she will definitely make your experience with Jewelry In Candles a fantastic one. So definitely go and check her websites out, browse, and when you receive your JIC snap pics and tag me through Instagram (mrslildirty25) or Twitter (@KieraGestl) I would love to see and hear your experiences with it and see what you guys got in your candles or tarts. I always wanted to say a HUGE thank you to Jennifer for being an amazing person and letting me review these on my blog! Your the best! :) 

What age is appropriate for make up?

Hey Loves,

I had a mommy and Sophia day yesterday. I figured it was way over due because ever since Kayden came I haven't had one on one time with my oldest Sophia. Of course with having more then one child it becomes harder to divide the time equally among them. Especially when the new ones are small. Kayden is hyperactive, technically they haven't diagnosed him with anything but they told me he shows strong signs of ADHD and he needs a little more attention a lot of the time in public places and Lyrix is only 9 months so she is the center of attention until she gets to do things on her own better.

Sophia tends to be the last child to get addressed and by then I have picked up the house, dishes are done, floor is swept and mopped, breakfast, lunch, and dinner have been cooked and served, dinner mess is cleaned up, and I am so exhausted I am only 1/2 there. Most of the time its time for bath and bed.

Words can only go so far, actions speak louder then words. So as a way to prove to Sophia she is as loved as I tell her she is all time, she is still as important as the other children, and she is always my baby no matter how many I have or how old she is, I took her on her first real shopping trip and bought her her very first lipstick to start off her make up collection.

 healthworks.my/expired-makeup-breakouts/

Which brings me to why I am writing this post. Exactly what age is appropriate for giving a child make up.? What kind of make up.? What colors deem appropriate.?

A lot of questions that I am sure you guys as mommies of girls or plan to want to have a girl in the future have wondered.

What age is appropriate for giving your child make up.? 

I never got my first make up that was mine until I was around 13. When I came into "womanhood", I was given clear or brown mascara, brown eye liners, brown liquid liner, neutral blushes, and neutral lipstick and tinted lip balms. I wasn't given anything dark until I was 16 and in a serious relationship.

Of course at that age I had no clue what I was doing!

My eyebrows were something I can't even bare to talk about, my eye liner was way to dark and made my eyes look small and squinty. I knew nothing what I know now, so looking back on my pictures I figured your child is never too young to learn the simple basics of the Art of Make Up. I went to Aveda and did take a Make Up Artist course and what better way to put my skills I learned to use and teaching my girls the best tips and tricks now, we even watch YouTube tutorials. Even Lyrix watches and I talk to her as I am going through my routines.

Sophia is 5 yo and just now starting to do the Whats in mommy's make up bag check. She likes to run off and test my make up. I do have some expensive make up products like my Urban Decay Palettes and Mac Eye shadows. So I figured since she is old enough to understand, know her product types, and follow directions, now would be a great time to start building her a make up collection.

We went to Ulta and Sophia bought her first lipstick, color was her choice. She picked a really pretty color that was, as she put it, her "fall color". See I told you I was teaching her right.

What kind of make up.?

I know it should be like easy like how toys are numbered for their age groups. Unfortunately, it is not. There are no age ratings on make up to give you a good guideline of what's kid appropriate. Yes they have kid choice make up like SMACKERS brand has all the flavored lip balms and glittery eye shadow, but if your child is anything like mine.... they know the difference.

I have came up with a list of what I will be getting my 5yo to add to her collection. I set a $50 a month limit for myself (for now, sometimes more) to spend on clothes, make up, hair products, etc. Really anything I want. So to help Sophia build up her make up and hair stuff stock (thanks to my mom on the hair) I will be buying Sophia one of the following at her choosing...

• Powder blush
• Cream Blush
• Make up brushes
• Neutral Eye Shadows 
• Lip Gloss 
• Lipstick
• Lip Stain
• Lip Balms 
• Lip scrubs 
• Lip Palettes 
• Make up Mirror lighted and pocket sized 
• Make Up remover wipes 
• Train cases and bags 
• Press on nails 

With Sophia I feel that the ages should be as such with make up

• 5-7 years : Lip products, make up removers, blushes, neutral eye shadows
• 8 years: Nail polish and accessories (non sharp and with supervision)
• 13-15 years: Clear and brown mascara, brown eye pencil and liquid liner with good grades and good behavior 
• 16 years: Darker colored shadows, blushes, liners, lips and accessories with good grades and good behavior 

Of course all of this is just at home play make up for every once in a while. Do remember that you don't need large amounts or even full sized items if you buying for your little because until you buy for them to actually wear in public to school, church, or anything like that make up does have an expiration date and needs to be tossed after a certain time. Normally the product will have the time frame you can have it open before it goes bad on the packaging. If not here is a guideline for you :) 

 thebeautypin.com

What color's should I get for my child.?

Really it's up to you as to what you feel is appropriate. If you would rather choose you child's make up or your child choose it. I let Sophia choose her first one. I don't like the barbie pink for her or the dark vampy colors but I her first choice was a nude brick red. Sounds really like an Oxymoron but in better words when it's in stick form all together it looks extremely dark brick red but when it was put on it was a lighter shade then I thought. A really pretty sheer brownish red. It's perfect for her tea parties and plays she does here at the house and of course for if she wants to wear it to grandma's house. 

The color is based on you. I feel that browns, sheer colors, pale pinks, and nudes are perfect for little's. 

Hope you ladies found this helpful or even find some inspirations to help set your own guidelines. 

PTLS and Me

Hello Ladies,

I want to take a few minutes of your time and open your eyes to something that is very serious, and very real. Post Tubal Ligation Syndrome or PTLS/PTS, is something the medical world refuses to really recognize as a true syndrome. I decided the best option for me was to have my tubes tied after baby #3. I have been pregnant on birth control, some birth control broke me out in rashes, or like the pill I just forgot to take it or when I did take it I would throw it back up and since I couldn't have a partial hysterectomy, tubal ligation was the next best thing.

Let's start off with my Tubal Ligation story:

From the time I told my OB I wanted to get my tubes tied he kept trying to talk me out of it. I couldn't really understand why. I was 23 pregnant with my 3rd child and with my womb given multiple signs that I am in line to have multiples (more so fraternal twins), I could not have another one especially not 2 more. Financially we were stretching it with having a 3rd one. She is such a blessing though! I was given reason after reason of why I should not do it....

1. I was way to young (according to the Dr)
2. I had a perfect womb for being a surrogate (even though I had an unhealthy 2nd and 3rd pregnancies so much so I was on bed rest with both! not a good reason to me)
3. I have a higher chance of getting pregnant with my tube tied then if I was to get the IUD (lol well it couldn't hurt, I have been pregnant while I had an IUD)
4. I would have a higher chance of an ectopic pregnancy
5. If I wanted them untied it would be $10k dollars or more, and there would be a 50/50 chance the reversal would still leave me to be un-fertile. 

I opted to get it done anyways. Me and my husband were absolutely 100% sure we didn't want to have another one. I had everything ready so that I could have my surgery the morning after if not that afternoon after I had my daughter. I was induced with my daughter and had an epidural put in. After my daughter was here, I was informed that my surgery was scheduled and ready for anytime between 7am and 11am, my epidural was going to be used for my anesthesia, since I was going to be wide awake for this surgery due to the risks of putting a mother who just had a baby to sleep. When it was time for me to go back we were told the surgery was only an hour I would be back in no time, they were there if he needed help with the baby, that made me laugh, because I told them ahead of time they needed to keep an eye on him since he has never been left with a newborn by himself, I was always the primary care parent, don't get me wrong he is a pretty amazing and loving father! I had more epidural fluid put into my back and my legs poked to make sure it was working. When I got into the OR, I was set up by having a blue sheet with a hole over my belly button, and a sheet blocking my view. I didn't get nervous until my arms and legs were strapped down and they tilted the table until I was semi head down. My OB informed me he was going to start the incision, and that when I felt it. The knife cutting and splitting open my skin. I cried, screamed and told him to stop, I didn't want to do this anymore. He told me there was no turning back since my belly button was officially cut half way open. He administered a local and began again. I could still feel it. All I remember after that was I was crying, screaming for him to stop, I couldn't breath, my belly button hurt, and I started shaking uncontrollably and the nurses were yelling and running around, I had a mask over my face. That's when I could hear nurses telling me to breath, and as much as I tried I just couldn't get my body to do it. I opened my eyes to see my heart beat slow down and my pulse slowing. I woke up again to having CPR done on me in my recovery room. My nurse was giving me Dilaudid (10 times stronger then Morphine) every 5-10min before I even woke up. Which in my charts tells them to limit me since I have a bad reaction to it. When I got into my room, my husband was worried because my 1 hour surgery took 3 1/2 hours. They didn't tell my husband anything about what happened. After I told him he was upset.

Scary right.?

I didn't notice anything wrong with me until 3 months later when my husband started asking me what was wrong with me? Was I feeling OK? Honestly I wasn't. To me I just figured, Oh I just had a baby my hormones are still balancing out. Well here I am, 9 months post tubal ligation surgery and my symptoms are worse then ever.

(tubal.org)

What are the symptoms of PTLS.?
Since the doctors don't acknowledge Post Tubal Ligation Syndrome as a real syndrome, much less as a real diagnoses, you can not really go and get tested to be diagnosed with PTLS. It will always be linked to another health issue such as Castrative Menopause, Severe Hormone Imbalance, Hormone Shock, etc. Which is why #IAmTheFaceOfPTLS is trying to be spread throughout the world, to bring light onto this horrible situation.

You can find the symptoms and what PTLS is linked with here on Tubal.org.
I personally struggle with 31 of these symptoms. It's no fun that I don't know my own body or feel comfortable in it, my depression has gotten worse, I cry at nothing, which makes me cry even more because I have no clue why I even started crying let alone why I can't stop, my marriage is being strained because my husband really doesn't understand what is going on or what PTLS is. He is also one of those people who think that mental issues are not real and something you can control. It also tends to make me in a "I dont care mood" I think what's the point some days. I have also been gaining a massive amount of weight that I have been trying so hard to shred off here lately. It really upsets me that I am up until my body just crashes. Scary part is that's not even brushing the surface of the issues I have had since my tubal ligation surgery!

I can even feel where the clamps are when I strain during a work out, go to get up from laying down in bed, sometimes there are days I lose from crashing. I can never sleep even when I try. I get confused easily sometimes even with the most simple things almost like I have a brain fart on steroids. My symptoms have even been noticed by my husband and my mom. My mom urges me constantly to keep getting checked. I have been told by one doctor that it was in my head I am fine, another tell me they noticed my estrogen levels dropped and believe in PTLS, i would need a hysterectomy done but never has an availability for me to see her when I call, others who laugh at me and tell me PTLS is not a real syndrome that there is another medical issue wrong with me but won't run any tests or continue to look further into anything to help me, and the ER gives me pain meds and sends me home.

The only ways I have seen and been told would help me would be a Tubal Reversal or my best option was to get a Hysterectomy done. Hopefully once I talk with my new Dr and figure out my best option, and get the surgery done, I will start to get better.

There have been a couple of times recently where my cramping is so bad during my cycle that I have blacked out and hit my head on my bathtub and the pain never really goes away. I have learned to live with headaches and pain in general on a daily basis. I eat Midol some days like its candy, it's the only thing that has helped with the pain. This is so serious and needs help to spread the word you guys. It is no joke and so scary for those who deal with it.

#IAmTheFaceOfPTLS was created by the ever wonderful Sandy Daniel who is the creator and owner of The New PTLS Support Group. If you feel you definitely have these symptoms that appeared after you had a tubal ligation done, write a message on a piece of paper and take a photo holding your message up, and dont forget to use #IAmTheFaceOfPTLS. Tweet it, IG it, FB tag it. Shout it out. Open everyone's eyes whether your suffering from it, or plan to have your tube tied every woman should know about the existence  of PTLS in hopes that the medical world will start to acknowledge it and find a way to help more women conquer it <3

I am Kiera Grant, I am 24 year old and #IAmTheFaceOfPTLS

Let it be known and do your research before sterilization!

Vidal Sassoon Review and my New Fall hair color

Hey Loves,

So I have been debating on whether or not to change my hair color. I have been wanting to for a while but wasn't quite sure if I wanted to spend the money or the time on it. I also have a hair color addiction. I am addicted to bright colors and DEFINITELY not your regular run of the mill colors. I mean white, silver, purple, blue, etc. I know, I know, your probably thinking this girl is one of those crazy people that runs around with a Unicorn on her hair... well you guys, yes yes I am! I love those colors. Anyways, I really finally decided why not let my husband pick out my hair color.

We went to Walmart tonight, yes you guys Walmart because I have dyed my hair so many times, and did go to a cosmetology/massage therapy school. So I know the basics of how to do it at home, and box dye is the cheaper route right now, since all of our fund is going to our DISNEY trip in January :)
My hair color is naturally different shades. I joke and say I am the original Rouge because like her the 2 chunk of strands right in front have always been a dirty blonde color, the color I was born with and had up until I started dying it (which I think was like 10 or 11, I was my Aunt's guinea pig when she went through cosmetology school) and the rest is a dark medium brown.

I asked my husband what color he would like to see and his answer right off the bat was PURPLE, like neon bright purple. I told him absolutely not, as amazing as I want to do it, I have to remember I am trying to find a job in a medical facility and unfortunately not thought of as "professional" but its so damn hot and I want it, just not right now. Then he said well how about a black with blue tint, where it looks black but once the light hits it BAM! it's blue. I figured hell why not, I haven't had blue hair yet!

Once we got to the store none of the colors fit exactly what we had in mind. We went to leave but another color caught my husbands eyes ... Vidal Sassoon's hair color in 6RR-London Luxe aka Runway Red

I was so nervous because I have done red from SPLAT and I do not under any circumstances recommend that hair product because it fried my hair to hell and back and a very uneven color. The red also came out pink. Normally I use Garnier because they have the color line for dark hair. I always get 2 boxes because my hair is so scary thick, that one bottle does my roots lol. Even if you are unsure get 2 boxes, it's better to be safe then sorry and look like you tried to color your hair through a game of paintball! lol 

Please remember when your dying your hair:

• moisturize your face and neck around the hairline and apply a thin layer of Vaseline over the moisturizer to prevent staining on your skin. 
• if you are to get it on your skin you can always wipe it immediately with a damp washcloth  or towel
• wear an old shirt and cover your shoulders with a towel or any cover
• Wear the gloves, they are in there for a reason
• Dye your hair in a well ventilated room
• Read Direction carefully 

my own personal tip is to start with your roots first and work your way to the ends with the color and...Voila

Now I haven't seen it in the sun yet but I will most definitely post it once I do! So far I really like it but I want it brighter, so in 2 weeks I will be doing it again to brighten it up. I can honestly day this is my favorite hair dye ever now. The color is vibrant and amazing considering I didn't strip my dark color and my hair smell so good like I washed it with shampoo! The conditioner is thick and made my hair so amazingly soft, I can't stop touching it. 

I have had quite a few people tell me they are nervous about doing it, or they don't think they could pull it off, Honestly I was terrified about doing this. I wasn't really sure how it was going to turn out but this is amazing and definitely must try. You are all gorgeous, don't sell yourselves short. You never know what it will look like if you don't try it :)